Dear God,

I am at a place where I cant seem to find my way... I don't know what I am supposed to do next...
I hate feeling this way, and I hate no being able to let go... Am I supposed to continue to hang on? Am I supposed to live my life waiting and hoping for something that may never happen?
When is it that this will be over? When do I get the chance to look back and see where I have finally arrived? when I get to see my journey in full and understand all my pain and anguish?
I keep repeating your words God in Isaiah 38:17, it says, "Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish. In your love you kept me from a pit of destruction..." I know full well that my suffering is leading me to my own betterment... but can I ask when will I recover? when will I see the benefits?
I love you... I know that you want what is best for me and you know what I need and I want nothing less... I am just hurting now Lord and I need your comfort... I need to see where I am going... But regardless of what happens I am here to follow you whether it is to the ends of the earth or just around the corner...
Just remember my heart God... it is hurting so badly Amen.