Blessed

There are those times in life where the bad seems as though it will never end... day in and day out we trudge through not really feeling a whole lot better than the day before...but then there seems to be that moment where you realize ...that all of the bad that was flooding your life... wasn't there... you didn't think about it for a moment... you smiled and laughed at a joke... you thought of someone else being someone who could be someone for you... this is the moment where you have to stop and realize that things ARE getting better... In fact, they have been better for a while, and you just didn't see or feel it.
And now the pain and hurt that you thought would never go away...the time that would never come... is here! you can finally wake up and honestly say, "That wasn't so bad..." The months that felt like years, now feel like just moments in your past that simply made you a better person... those who were close to you who told you time and again, " you will look back at all of this and see why it happened and find the good out of this situation," were right... It was all for the better....
But the best part coming out of all this is being able to simply go out side, take a deep breath, and smile... really truly smile and appreciate all that is around you...

When do you know?

When do you know...we are not going to always hear or sense God's will in our life...So my question again is this - WHEN DO YOU KNOW????
I do not say this out of frustration, I can truly say that I have found peace in my current situation...BUT I have no idea where I am going :-) In a way this makes me smile because i suppose that is the whole point of this journey... If I knew exactly where I would end up - I don't think I would try so hard and I certainly wouldn't be growing and continually changing.
But this is where the journey gets hard...I now know that I have no idea where God will lead me, and yes that brings great joy to my heart, but how am I supposed to know when to say, "Yes" and when to say, "No"?
I really don't need any more huge road blocks at the moment... I have had plenty to last me a few years... But how do I avoid them? How do I learn, move forward, and grow with out encountering them? (SIGH).

Change

Have you ever been waiting for a moment...a moment you really don't want to ever come...but you know that once it does you can truly move on?
Why are these moments so scary? I wish I could have complete confidence in these moments...instead of being hesitant...
I know that these are the times that change are lives...and sometimes there is nothing we can do about it...change is coming...like it or not.
I think I am ready for change, I think i am ready to move forward...but it is scary to think of what lies ahead...who will be there, and will I be happy?
Our decisions have lead us to where we are and I believe that we should embrace those consequences or perhaps those rewards...